Have you ever felt the need to take stock in your life because the bottom has totally fallen out?
I’m not talking about a bad day here or there. I mean something much worse than a hang-nail and a paper-cut on the same finger. I’ve dealt with those days with a yawn.
No, my life has been hit. Hit hard, and hit frequently. About the time I stand back up another freight train barrels down on me from behind.
I’ve gone into many of the details here before so I won’t repeat them again.
It came to a head on Friday. After accepting a work assignment that was supposed to last five days I was told on Thursday the orders were slacking off and they wouldn’t need me to come back on Friday. So I called in my availability for another assignment for Friday.
On Friday, when I called back in to see if my temporary boss reported he wouldn’t need me, the phones I call in on were out of service. I had to call the recruiting line to talk to an assignment person. Long story short, because the phones were out they didn’t have anything for me.
But, they did line up an interview for me on Monday. I’ll talk to someone from the Dallas Morning News about hiring on with them in Plano through the temp agency. That could be a good thing even if it only gets me some stability back in my life.
Even with everything that’s made up my harried life of late I thought I still had things under some semblance of control. I was sure I was ahead of schedule with my blog. I was able to write a few posts and schedule them out so I wouldn’t have to worry about that aspect of my life during the Christmas travel time I enjoyed.
On Friday I was so convinced I was still scheduled out another week that I never checked to make sure. I easily could have written the post that was supposed to go out that evening. Instead, I buried my head into an ebook I’ve been wanting to finish.
Reality struck me when I checked my emails before I went to bed. Fully expecting to see that night’s blog post listed I was shocked to see nothing of the sort.
That’s when I realized something has to change. My life is so chaotic right now I have some decisions to make so I can focus on what’s most important right now.
The first thing that entailed was deciding what’s most important. I have two new writing gigs vying for my attention. I fully planned on concentrating on getting some prayer ebooks made to get my name out there as a Christian writer just after I returned home from Christmas travels. Then “POW!!” My wife dropped the D-bomb on me.
We’ve been separated for two years and she sent me an email that she’s preparing for a divorce. I know this next sentence won’t make sense, but this may be the only way to salvage my marriage. She says she feels trapped in the marriage and a divorce may make it so we can be friends again. All I’ve been asking for is a chance to win her heart back. If this is what it takes I’ll walk through that door with anticipation and hope. Your prayers are definitely needed for God to receive the glory in this.
About the time I get my feet back under me from that I get sicker than I’ve been in several years. Now that I’m recovered from that I don’t know what ‘s next.
In the interim I feel like the door has closed on the prayer ebooks at this time because of the other writing project that needs my immediate attention. The children’s storybook app has to be my main focus at this time.
I’ve had my hand on that doorknob for so long I know I have to walk into that all out now. I wish I could stop driving long enough to focus on this app, but I don’t think my creditors would appreciate this starving artist doing that.
In order for me to give the app my best effort I’ve decided to stop posting on this blog. As much as I love writing these posts the time drain is too much for me right now. I was only planning on blogging about Joseph until he was promoted to his position of power anyway. So, I will post about that this Friday, since that was supposed to be last Friday’s post. After that don’t expect anything on either Monday or Friday until further notice.
I’ll do my best to send out a monthly newsletter around Feb 1. If the Spirit leads I may post a poem or humor piece, but don’t count on it.
I don’t know where I’ll go with the devotional posts when I come back. I may continue to follow Joseph’s life, or I may go back to David’s life and discover what important lessons he was taught that made him such a great leader. If you have a preference let me know in the comments.
Prayers are very much needed and appreciated. As you can see when you’re fighting on the front lines the attacks come fast and furious. I know I’m on the winning side so I’ll keep on keeping on.
Watch my back. I’ll be back. Wade